This has been a very hard retrograde on many people. If you are experiencing chaos yet feel as if things are going to be ok, but are hearing thoughts in your mind of fear "because how could you know they will be ok", or "life could be playing with you and the feeling of being ok means everything will fall apart", you are very right on all levels! This is the awkward balance of Gemini and your intuition both telling you the same thing. At the end of a retrograde everything does fall apart because the changes are coming to a head. When changes come they happen in many levels. First there is the awakening when you feel that change is coming. Next there is the shaking up and stirring up. Then there is the utter chaos, and finally there is the new in which we have to learn to adapt to everything. After the adaptation we feel ok because we have learned what is new and have an understanding of it all. Everything you are feeling about how it will be ok, is the after affect of what is to come. We never really feel good when we feel or experience something being destroyed especially when some of it is very permanent. But through it all we know that from creation comes chaos, but from chaos comes peace. These are the cycles of life. They look so much nicer here on paper than having to walk through them.
For those of you who are feeling the chaos ground your energy, your mind and yourself so that you can be centered and balanced as you go through the last two weeks of this retrograde. We are also making the transition from Gemini into Cancer coming on the 22nd of June. This will allow you to have clearer thinking and decision making during the last part of this retrograde. For my more intuitive people you are probably already feeling this break in rationality which will help to make the chaos easier to deal with! If you are feeling anger be sure to analyze it and put thoughts into it that are not fuel for the anger, but help you better understand why you are angry. Anger is a natural psychological reaction to life when we are faced with things that scare us and with all this change going on the unknown creates a fear that can turn into anger. Anger is not bad. There is both positive and negative in it as there are in everything. Some say that peace is the best way to balance anger, but in some cases you just need to blow through it in a positive setting. When faced with a wall water pushes through and then comes peace. For many this is the same response. When you burst through and allow yourself to feel the fire and rage and pain and everything that comes with it you are purifying yourself. To do this in a healthy manner we do not direct it at people we find a space that is our own and we can scream, and cry, or exercise hard to our favorite music, or go to the batting cages. You can beat your favorite pillow or look up some of the many variations used in psychology to allow patients to exude their anger in a positive and healthy manner.
Do not fear who you are, embrace who you are and allow yourself to work through things. Anger is the passion of our souls and it needs to be expressed so that we can cleanse and heal! It is a counter opposite to peace as peace needs balance as well. If someone is always at peace they may feel the negative sides of it in that they become weak and do not know how to properly stand up for themselves and then they begin to feel trampled and walked on. Peace needs anger just as much as anger needs peace. This is deeper work that takes time and a lot of thought! Keep working. As my guides told me this week as I was impatient and wanting to just get stuff done is relax. I said but I do not have time to relax. And my guides replied......darling there is nothing but time.
You have all the resources you need be sure to listen to your intuition it will tell you when the energy will flow, you will know when to fight through something, and you will know when to be at peace! Many blessings to all as you work through the next few weeks. I will leave you with three thoughts that have gotten me through the roughest of times and places.
1. Time is always moving forward, never backwards. While I feel stuck I am not in the place I was yesterday and I will not be in the place I am today, tomorrow. I will get through this if for nothing except that time is continuing to move.
2. I have lived through my whole life up to this point. I have survived that which I did not think I would survive and I have lived through that which I did not think I could live through. I made it then and I will make it now!
3. Take time to enjoy the journey. Sometimes we are so caught up in the fight that we close off from the moment. In closing off we do not learn the lessons we need to learn or we learn to close off our souls. While it may hurt do not close off from you. Exercise hurts when we are working out, but it is a part of what we need to get to the body we want. You are going to go through it anyway because this is life so make it your own!